Ahh... I am relaxed and Rejuvinated...and I have alot on my mind at the same time...

So, today I got back from an awesome women's retreat!! I liked the previous years retreats, but for some reason I really really enjoyed myself.  I got to see a good ole friend of mine. I went to HS with this girl, and she has recently (within the last two years) turned her life to Christ. I don't have many friends at all and often dont see them as often as I'd like, so it was really nice to spend a small part of the weekend with her, and giggle like how we used to.  Also, we had a great speaker! We studyed the story of Joseph, his teen years, his 30's and later. It was good.  The part that really "hit me" was when we talked about the waiting rooms in our life. I totally feel that way... Again, yes I'm going there, so leave now if you dont want to read!  I feel at a total crossroads right now. I guess I dont know how to put it.  God has a plan laid out for us all, whether we know it yet or not.  I feel that we (I) am in the waiting room of "here I am Lord, I'm married, now what? Where are the kids that we are wanting?"  Waiting for the path to be laid out.  I really struggle with that, and have been since EVERYONE (ok well maybe about 6 people) we know are either pregnant, had a baby recently, or are thinking they could be preg. since they havent had a period in XYZ days. (sorry if that is tmi for some!)  I know this is a test from God, but seriously-does it have to be this hard? Well ok, guess that went better than I thought it would be.  A good thing out of this whole weekend, is Kevin and I talked and he knows how my heart is and how I am feeling about all this.  Also, in case any one doesnt know, he doesnt really truly believe in God, he goes to church, but that is it!  So I got motivated from my good friend I had at the retreat, to start a go through the bible in a year plan thing. Kevin is gonna do it to!! yeah!! I am happy.
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Ok, so on to other things, the diet has been WAY on the back burner...I know I know...   I plan to for sure start back up on monday. I was really hit in the face again today as why I need to loose weight, I am out of breath after walking up a flight and a half of stairs-seriously... sad...   I know how I got off track, so it wont be to hard to get back on track. But sticking to it...thats were I fail...alot. 
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I have alot of "goals" for this coming week.  I am gonna finish my invites for a party we are gonna have mid june. I made them on photoshop with digiscrap elements and am getting them printed in photo format.  Also, I am very serious on making photo cards to sell on etsy.  I am not expecting to make alot of money, but I really enjoy taking photos with my SLR, and want others to experience my view through the lens in a card they can mail to a friend.  Oh yes, and working on the diet. Those are the main goals for the week.   Oh also, one HUGE goal was completed!! woot!! I finished scanning all of my parents paper photos!! woo hoo!!   ok night all!!