Wow-ok so it has been a long time since i blogged last.  Not alot has happened-well sorta.  I had a job interview recently-yeah! But I think I slightly bombed it, sigh... I donno.  I have started/continued to work on stuff to sell in my etsy store that I have yet to set up.  I am making photo baby announcement and photo save the date cards in photoshop then plan to sell customized ones to people.  Who knows how it will go.  really like making the stuff, but alot of people sell the same thing on etsy. I plan to try an corner the market by selling em for cheaper than everyone else, but who knows.

On other news, I recently joined a new gym. It is a really great gym, but again motivation is seriously lacking and i am not sure how to keep  motivated.  I am seriously wanting to do this weight loss thing, but i am having a really hard time motivating myself...who knows.  I need to think of a good reward that will motivate me.  On the same food note I joined a 12 step program for food, called overeaters annonymous.  It bases its teaching on the 12 step program and on the foundations from AA.  I have gone to four meetings and am enjoying it.  I really realized that I am an over eater after they read step one...omg.  Ok, it was more when they read the stuff that goes along with step one.   So now i am trying to find a sponsor through the program. I also need to find/go to other meetings, our group leader/head person/whatever suggested I go to a few other meetings to make sure that the meeting was right for me.  ok, so thats enough on that...!!

Also, I finally realized/have been able to put into words to why I have been emotional about this whole baby thing.  I am mourning a loss.  A loss of mommy's nose, daddy's eyes, ect.  The loss is of having our own kiddo with features/traites that are ours.  This year has been really hard on me for this reason. I went through a breif mourning after I found out the details, but pretty much stuffed it in.  Well this year everyone who is of baby bearing age we know is preggers (ok not EVERYONE) but ALOT of people are pregnant or gave birth to a baby.  Well I broke down on the drive to one of my friends house for her shower.  It was really hard for me to be happy for her! I know that sounds selfish, but whatevs.  So I am not really looking forward to a different shower for a different girlfriend I am going to.  She is a sweet lady, and very well deserving of a child. She has gone through alot to get a healthy baby.  Ok, so enough on that!!

Goals have sorta/kinda been on the back burner. We have had the MIL over a few times for dinner, but not my parents :(  My parents are so busy it is hard to plane a dinner that works for both of us.  Also, I did goal #17-no soda for a month. but that is as long as it lasted-a month.  I need to do this again, but i like my fountain soda!!Also, I did do goal #26-go geocaching with kev. Him, I and my neice & nephew went geocaching one day-it was fun!We did get an associated bank checking account too!  I did join the womens group at church(59), The first meeting was this past tuesday, it is like 8 weeks long and we are studying the book   "the prodigal God".  The biggest "yeah" goal was #91, have the neice & nephew over for a sleep over-i got the oppertunity to do that-i was so happy!  I cant wait until their christmas break so i can hopefully have em over again!

Ok so that is about it blogy wise. Hopefully going to blog more often-but i wont promise anything!!