A post relateing to babys on the brain somewhat and jealousy

Ok so I dont exactly know what to title this blog.  Recently as stated i have had a bought of Babys on the brain (or botb for short). Botb comes and goes-sometimes certain things trigger it, sometimes I dont know what triggers it.  Well tonight we went to our good friends hose for a get together. At first I was gonna write how I totally feel out of place at these types of shingdigs because I really don relate to the wifes of the men that Kevin grew up with as friends and still are friends with. Hopefully that made sence.  But now I am gonna talk about botb.  So we go to their house, and we brought food over and everything was going really good.  Then while everyone is eating they announce that their having a baby-I congratulate them.  Dont get me wrong-I am very happy for them, they deserve it as much as anyone does.  But then I have to think about this topic in my head and keep quiet my comments like, "That's not fair, their younger than us" or "Thats not fair, they have only been married barley two years" It is so selfish of myself to think this, but I do.  I know the world is not fair-no need to inform me.  I guess I am at an age, that even though my hormones dont work the way they are supposed to, so motherly instinct is front and forward in my brain, gotta have kids, gotta have em now. UGH-I want kids, but it is just so unfair the work that we are going to have to put into a kid-were some couple can just do it the old fashioned way. Sorry for my rant-the Botb was a lot more in control and check before tonight, now I am just really jealous of others. Sorry friends who read this and judge-your not in our spacific shoes. 

Other than that tonight was alot of fun. We played apples to apples and then a game where you start with how ever many peices of paper as there are players, we had 10. So the owner of the paper stack writes a word or phrase, then they pass it to the left, they draw the word, the next writes what the drawing is, and this continues until it gets back to the owner. These were pretty hilarious tonight! The hilarity part was because most of the guys think as though they are still in HS.  So this week, I am gonna work on getting the guts up to work on the goal about calling the repro endo, finish reading book 2 for 100 books in 1001 days.  I plan to add a new goal to my list, I am thinking about it being for post crossing, but I am not sure.  Today, I am thankful for God, and his ability to control my extreme jeleousy tonight at a friends house.  I am also thankful for good friends, even though we dont all gather together alot.  So tonights two pictures are two of the games that we played earlier. They are what I was trying to discribe.   Sorry about the rant again, the botb really caught me off guard today. Off to sleep. Be warned-pictures are PG13 rated!!