UUGH! Weight Gain

So I know i havent posted in a while but i finally am today!! I was so dissapointed tosay after steping on the scale, it went up as usual :( I suppose some of it is probably from eating out almost everymeal in aruba 2weeks ago, but i thought i was doing good. I went to lunch with a friend this past weekend and was told by her that i look good and what was i doing to loose weight, i said not anything different. Seriously i gotta get motivated, but i cant truely see forking out forty plus bucks a month on weight watchers or similar programs. I have tryed out sparkpeople.com and caloriecount.com they both have great resources, but i need the accountability. Seeing as i am shy i really havent met alot of people on either that jive with me so it is hard to be accountable to myself. I guess I am stressed about the weight, and always really have. But now that I am married and we are wanting to start a family I am getting even more stressed about the weight. Also the fact that i am currently unemployed makes my stress level higher. I guess I need to just relax and give it to God. But that is easier said than done.