Vlog regarding thursday thoughts and weigh in day!

Vlogs I made instead of blogs!  It is two parts, about 14 minutes total. Check it out!!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LSf4ygp_aWc

My day

So ok, I am more relaxed and at ease to write this whole shebang down about what happened today.  To start off I have been SOO nervous of the doctor saying, well we cant do anything in your situation, or you need to loose X before we can treat you.  Well needles to say, neither happened-thank God. I was figureing it would be pricey, but not as crazy pricey as it is/was.  So upfront we had to pay 325 for a new patient consult, this was semi ok. We have an HSA, so insurance adjusts how much we have to pay, then we pay the balnce on our HSA debit card thingy.  All was ok at this point, then we were given an outline of costs, now generaly our insurance covered testing, and some consult fees, but no treatment fees were covered at all. It is that was with most of wisconsin patients apperantly.  Ok, so the low down on fees are this: Male testing required fees before insurance coverage is like $600 bucks, that is covered. The female tests would be like $2400 bucks. yeech!  So if we were to go through with it or deductable would have come and gone-fast!!  The actual prepossed treatment would be $4600 -$5100 PER MONTH!!! Seriously. My Goodness.  So um, yeah it was pretty much out of the question. The cost is IUI treatment and meds-but still seriously, oh my gosh! Even if I did have a job, and made the same amount as Kevin, we still would not be able to afford it. Jeez, you have to be a lawyer or doctor just to afford it-or government worker...
 So after we got out of the appointment I started tearing up. Why do my emotions come out at the most inappropriate times.  So by the time we were about to walk past the bathrooms, I had to dash in and try to get control of myself, wich temporarily worked. I got to my car, kissed the hubbs and started to cry in the car.  I guess in a way I didnt know why I was reacting this way, but at the same way I do. Kevin phrased it exactly right "my hopes were dashed" and that is true. It is something every couple wants-to have a child of their own flesh and blood.  Now dont get me wrong, adoption is great but it is different.  
So today I fell apart, and kinda discovered something about my self at the same time.  I never thought I was an emotional eater, but after today I seriously think I am.  This afternoon I took a drive (my way of relaxing) and picked up some water and peanut butter M&Ms. Yeah... Oh well Now I know, and I will try to have like granola bars or something on hand in my car.   so Annonymus-here it is-the blog you wanted!! :p  

So other than that, goals AGAIN have kinda been on the back burner. grr.  I still havent finished book #4, havent done anymore knitting, or anything really on my list. I need to focus on it more huh??!  But i did finish a personal goal yesterday. It was not one of my 101 in 1001 goals, but a goal I have had for a while.  The goal was to walk a consecuative 3 miles. I did it!! I was super happy yesterday. Now I am gonna work up to four miles.  I "may" enter a 5k walk run thing in may or june. I am not gonna run it, id be a walker wich i am totally cool with.  I have put my c25k training on hold until I loose more weight, I havent been able to control my breathing for the run I did. I felt like I was gasping for air. But I am fine air wise when I am walking, yes I breathe a bit heavier after a mile or two, but I can still breathe full breaths!   So today, other than gorgeing on food (I also had a cheeseburger at MCD) I also did not get any excersize in. But I will tomorow, hopefully it isnt as cold as it is today.brr.  Good night!!
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I am thankful that I able to recognize and admit when I have failed myself! 

S a w e e t!!

So, today I did it!! Yes indeedy do! I finally did a 3 miler!! All in one trip to!  My feet were pretty tired afterwards. I got another blister, and of course i popped it. Dumb me. So my foot is stingy feeling when i walk.  I have it gaused and taped up, so we will see how it is tommorow.  So the food plan is going pretty good, even though i have eatten out at subway a few times this week.  I have written it all down at least, wich is an accomplishment. Ok so i cant think anymore, hubby and his brother are watching ledgend of the seeker.

I can smell it... Sucess that is!!

Yeah! Ok so today I weighed in, lost two pounds this week. I think I would have lost more  had I not binged on food friday and saturday I think.  But that is ok with me, really I am so happy with the two pound loss!! yeah!!  Also I started training for my 5k.  I am following the C25k program (couch to 5k). It was created by a guy at coolrunning.com (i think).  I have the ipod touch app that gives you audable cues when you are supposed to walk or run.  Needless to say, it totally beat me today!!  My biggest problem I think is actually being able to take in more air - change my breathing pattern.  I was quite winded after like 15 or 20 seconds of running.  I am thinking depending on how this week turns out training wise, I may just repeat this weeks routines next week.  I am not sure I like running, I think partially cause I got winded easily. 

On other diet/nutrition news I plan to start me week off tracking calories and points again.  I did super good through out the week, but stunk it up when the weekend came around.  I also plan to walk for a half hour twice a day like I did last week.  I am starting to like my time either in my thoughts or listening to music when taking my walks.  Kevin even joined me on a few walks! 

I am happy that I am now watching what I eat, really I am. I am also quite impressed with my abbility to stick to it.  Normally, on a bad day like I had last week, I would have given up. This time I just said, well that day was bad but tommorow is a new day. 
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Other goals I am working on is the 100 operation beautiful post its.  I did my first one today!! woohoo!! I posted it in the womens restroom at church.  Also this week I plan to work on cleaning the house deeply-a good deep spring cleaning.  I am thinking about working on the basement as well.  I need to go through the closet cabinets in the basement and reorganize it and try to get things that we dont use out of the closet and given to GW.   Also hope to finish #4, I am still slowly reading it. I havent set much time aside just to read that book. 
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So, I decided also since i am putting my food journal out there I might as well put my weight out there. please no judgeing. This is my weight, to carry around, not yours. Thanks!

Bible Verse o The Day
Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.  Matthew 11:28

Thankful item o the day
Today I am thankful for God's sacrifice. He took my sins and died on the cross for me- and you!

Pics of Postcards

Pictures of postcards and canceled stamps can be found on my flickr page.
http://www.flickr.com/photos/21559896@N03/sets/72157623660805730/

My Off Day

So today originally I planned to stay on diet plan, but i ended up not.  But I am ok with that-really I am. I had didnt go to overboard though, I dont think.  Also I didnt journal my food, I might, but it might just be to depressing to see all the points spent. A run down of what I ate, hmm.  Breakfast kevin made me 5 blueberry pancakes, those were about 7 points total, I had cantalope, 1 point, linner (lunch dinner brunch thingy) was at Jimmy johns, had a ham and cheese sub. Then tonight we rented two redbox movies-both of wich sucked- and then gordged on some food. I had a diet pepsi, some goldfish, some nilla waffers, and alot of baked cheetos, so all together bunches of calories!!  I also did not get any activity in today or yesterday. Today was do to the crappy weather. 
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On other news, I received not one, not two but THREE post cards between yesterday and today!! wahoo!! I received on from Norway, Italy, and Great Brittan.  Sooo cool! It is cool to send them, but so much cooler to receive em!!  I currently have three traveling, one to russia, portugal, and Finland.  Hope they get there sometime soon. 
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Today I am thankfull for my husband, and his willingness to deal with my spur of the moment want to change my hair!!  I love him so much, I cant beleive it will be three years this may. And guess what?  I will be completing two goals around my anniversary!! wahoo!!  We are scheduleing a weekend trip to chicago to see the shedd and museum of science & industry!! I am soo excited!!!!
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Goals for this week include, going back on plan diet wise tommorow, finally-i hope-finishing book #4, working on the knitting a little more and um, i am not sure what else. Maybe do some operation beautiful posts?? If i remember my post it pad, i'll put one up in church!! hehe!!!
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Bible verses for this past week-

For the word of God is living and active. Sharper than any double-edged sword, it penetrates even to dividing soul and spirit, joints and marrow; it judges the thoughts and attitudes of the heart.  Hebrews 4:12

This is His command: to believe in the name of His Son, Jesus Christ, and to love one another as He commanded us.  1 John 3:23

Out of my funk - i think

So yeah, last night I ranted on about how I gorged on food. Well today I through my body through another loop. Yes I know. Normally I dont eat enough, well today was that. I ate a yogurt at like 10:30 then didnt eat again until 3pm.  So from three on, I have been slowly eating. It is good stuff though, but still.  So I gotta say I am happy I blogged about my breakdown yesterday, it got me kinda back on track today and forgetting about yesterday.  There is one thing I am regretting is that i havent done any physical activity today, probably wont tommorow either since it is supposed to snow.  Hopefully on sunday I can get back into a groove. But still I think I have done alot of activity earlier this week from monday through yesterday.  Other goals also are on the back burner, except i did create an etsy account!! wahoo!! The reason I wanted to do it is, I want invites made up for a cook out that we are going to have in june. I couldnt find any I liked, I set up an alchemy (they call it) or request for this type of a card. But Kevin does not want to pay 50 bucks so I am not sure, I may end up just making my own invites after all. hmm. 

Gotta learn to take it one day at a time

So yes, this is the second post today, yes I know. But i am a little angry with myself and wanna get it out. So I ate so good this morning for breakfast, and for lunch really.Kevin and I then go to subway, i stay within my guidelines, we come home, Kevin did a little bit of calking our front stoop, then we went for my second walk of the day. So from the time I get home from the walk until pretty much now I cant keep stuff out of my mouth! I just keep eating and eating. grrr.  I ate three servings of nilla wafers and two servings of goldfish, a yogurt and a slice of cheese. Seriosly OMG i though I was trying to loose weight-not stuff my face.   But at the same time-that is one of my fears when I start to watch what I eat. I feel like, oh great I am gona get restricted on what I can eat i need to get all the bad food I can.  I hate it when it happens. That is usually how i feel when I screw up one day.  I need to learn to take it on day and even one meal at a time, but that is something hard for me to learn.      On other news relateing to dieting, I did both of my walks. The first was 6 times around my block wich is 1.5 miles and this evening Kevin and I walked a route through the other condos to grange. That is about 1.4 miles.  The odd thing is, this last walk, the both times I did the 1.4 mile walk the time was longer than the one for 1.5 miles. not sure why. oh well.  I am happy I am able to finish the 1.4 or 1.5 mile walks.  I am not trying to race or get under a certain minute per mile, but more a completion of walk.   Ok so i am hopefully done with my rant.

Im impressed!

Ok, so needless to say I am quite happy and surprised that I am still on track. I dont know what is different this time, maybe because it is just about me and I dont care what others say negative or what. Woohoo!!  So I still have to post pics-i know. I have been busy running errands and taking walks.  So I think that is partially what is keeping me on track. I am trying to challenge myself, I want to be able to walk for 3 miles at one time by the end of april. Right now I am walking 3 miles a day for the last few days, but it isnt all in one walk. I have two different walks during the day and together they are 3 miles-so 1.5 miles each.  Also my eating has been fairly good. I eat on average 32 WW points-wich is more than my daily target by two. But I noticed if I just ate the 30 points I would still be under calorie range that sparkpeople.com wants me to eat.  Yesterday was one of my Oh My God moments. We went to Cousins subs, needles to say from now on I will be getting the mini subs. I got a Club sub, wich was 16 points. Yeah...    Also am on the look out for a good cheesecake like recipies-i am an addict!!  I tryed something last night, Kev helped figure out the points, but I thought it was to small and to many cals. I made a little cheesecake shooter, RF Nilla wafer ground up on the bottom, 2 T of philly cheese cake filling in a little shot glass. It was yummy, But the cals were crazy on it.  like 100 cals. to much for a daily treat.  Not satisfieing enough either because it was so small.  Ah well.  So I was so happy today when I stepped on the scale, I weigh about four pounds less, but I am not gonna take that number yet, I wanna see where I am one week from when I started-so this sunday I will weight myself for good and record it.  So other goals, still on the backburner, havent dont any more stitches on the knitting item. I have read a few more pages in my fourth book. Well ok, so technically I am working on the be under 200lbs goal and the be able to walk a half marathon goal. So I should be happy for that.  Leaving to go on my morning walk!.

Just a quick update blog

So I just wanted to update my blog with how my diet went today. I am really happy!! I ate really well. I still have a few points / calories to eat tonight, but I am mostly done eating wise.  I even got two excersize sessions in today! wahoo!!  So at four I took a walk around my neighborhood by myself with the ipod.  Iwas just under a mile. It was .82miles. Then tongih Kevin and I walked a bit longer-but still not a full mile. I walked .95 miles.  So tonight not only did I log my walks on spark people, but I also mapped my next walk. I am trying to walk up to 1.25 miles.  After I reach that I will change my mini goal, but for now thats the goal. So also I am just realizing after many dieting attempts that I have to do this for myself, not for my dad, mom, husband or who ever else, I need to do it for myself.  Ok-good nite! Plan to post journal photos tommorow.

Tuesday 3/16 Blog

So yesterday went well diet wise. I tracked my calories eaten on sparkpeople.com and journeled ww points in a journel.  I also took a walk around my neighborhood with Kevin last night.  I walked a total of 3/4 of a mile. I could have gone a little farther, but Kevin was cold so we stopped.  I decided instead of writing all the info of what I wrote in my jounel I will take a picture of each page at the end of the day and post it on a new page in the blog.  I am going to do this as a sort of accountability. I will have my journel page out there for who ever to see.  Hopefully this keeps me on track.
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On other news, I got my subaru back from the dealer yesterday, we purchased a special coating for the interior/exterior. Still not sure that the purchase of the coating was a good idea. I guess we decided to get it because I was really nervous of fees we would have to pay at the end of our lease for dents dings, ect. The interior coating is supposed to make nothing stick to the interior, like if you spill your coffee or soda or something, it is supposed to come right out, if it doesnt the company will come out and get the stain out at no cost to me. The exterior coating is supposed to protect against dents dings, ect.  So in this case as well if you get a ding they will pop it out at their expence.  So we will see if it is really worth it or not at the end of the lease.  The car reeks because of the coating though.  I had to leave all my windows open overnight to air it out. I got a headache just from the fumes. They are supposed to be non toxic, but i think it was quite toxic to my head!!!

I started a new book, no i did not finish the original book four, but I just got my new Rosie Odonnell book and had to start it last night. I gotta say she is one of my favorite actor/actress/famous person.  I really liked her first book and I am liking her second book. I am 44 pages in already!

So last night I made a light version of meat loaf-I really like my dads homemade meatloaf but it is so high in cals and fat because it is made with ground beef. So I found a low fat ground turkey meat loaf. It had ketchup, eggs, onion soup mix and tomato paste on top. I didnt totally like it. I am not sure if it was the soup or what it was that made it kinda icky, but i dont think I will make the recipie again.  We have leftovers, so of course we will eat that-try to not waste food. But i need to find some lower fat recipies that I like, and that Kevin will eat. He is not a meat eater and I am. So any non fish recipies you got? Send em my way!!

Today I am thankfull for my husband-he really is the best guy I know. Always there for me, even when I act like an ass.  Yesterday I was thankfull for my loaner car. Even though it was the same type of car, it was a higher end car version. So I was able to live in the lap of car luxary for a few hours!! Todays bible verse is:
The Lord your God is God; he is the faithful God, keeping his covenant of love to a thousand generations of those who love him and keep his commands.— Deuteronomy 7:9

Weight blog

So ok, I know I posted a blog earlier, but I am posting another one.  Tonight I want to talk about weight and weight loss. I have yet again restarted sparkpeople.com, I am not sure what is wrong with my lack of motivation and lack of desire towards weight loss.  I know what i do and dont do right, well i think I know at least!  Today I also decided to do an at home version of weight watchers. No I did not sign up for ww online, I have the books and I will just rely on them for point values, ect.  I need to get moving to, I know that is a big part to loosing weight. My plan is to start again tommorow-we will see if I am motivated.hhmm. Tommorow I gotta take my car in for a protectant coating application. They are gonna give me a loaner for the day so i should be fine mobility wise. I really want to go to the gym, but my brain will work overtime on why i shouldnt go, it is frustrating.    Also with weight loss, I have a hard time staying on track, but I am hoping with blogging, I might be able to stay on track better.  I am going to create a page that I may/may not update with what I have eaten in the day.  Ok so hopefully wont fall to far off the wagon. 

Ah Sunday....

So today we had an early morning, church at 8:30 am. That is way to early for me, especially because the morning prior we were woken up by my mil talking on her phone at 6am-seriously...  Ok, so I really dreaded going to church, I really dont like the catholic faith, but that is me and my problems.  So after church we went out to breakfast as a big family. The food was great! So other than that today was pretty much a stay at home day.  We did go out for dinner, more to see how bright the lights were than to actually eat.
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Some goals that I am going to try to work on this week are finishing book #4 (still), work on my knitting project, and other than that not sure.  I will officially have blogged regarding 101 in 1001 for a month tommorow. I have attempted the daily blogging for a month with out success. Even if I had blogged daily for a month, I still would leave that goal up as I wasnt to participate in NaBloPoMo.  But also this does not mean that I will not post as often as I have.  I plan to blog every day, but it may end up being two or three days between posts.
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Tonight I am thankful for my family-no matter how angry I am at them, they are my family and they will be there for me when noone else is. 
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Bible Qoute o the Day
I have hidden your word in my heart that I might not sin against you. Psalm 119:11

Excitement at every corner!

Ok, so earlier this week (Wednesday to be exact) I wrote that we signed a guarentee for a subaru, well we did.  Thursday I go and talk to my dad about how we decided to do this, and well he wasnt super happy nor was he upset, wich i would hope is good.  But i know the view he is having in his head "ok, Kevin is the only one working, can they really afford this?"  And the answer is yes, but the money will be tighter than before. But at the same time, I dont have to worry about my car breaking down for the millionth time.  So prior to wednesday we had made arrangements for me to go with my  MIL to her doctors appointment so I could kinda inform the family on what is going on with her health. Also told her she could sleep over. Her doc appointment was friday after noon and then she came to the house. The boy came over and hubbys brother came over. It was pretty fun, although loud.  Ok, so today we went to go sell the old subby to carmax - they offered double the trade in amount that subaru city did. Ah well, ok so we sold it and then drove back to milwaukee and bought the new subaru-and oh man do I love my car. It is a 2010 Subaru Forester.  It rocks, it is a little bigger than the legacy and has a hatchback wich I love!  Also I love that It has so many electrical outlets thingys! It has three! It also plays ipods and stuff!  Ok so I will try to stop bragging!  
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So goals were on the back burner yet again. gggrrr. I really want to get back on a schedue eating wise and reading wise.  I am reading the second book in the twilight series. I read the first book in January before my 101 in 1001.  Other goals that I am working on is the knit item.  I am slowly going along at it. A row here and a row there.  The soda goal totally was not on my mind this week either.  I had a soda at least three days this past week. Since I failed two weeks in a row I am gonna put that on hold for now. 
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So tommorow Kevin and I are going to church, but not our usually church. We are going back to my childhood catholic church. My parents still go there. Tommorow the service is in memory of my grandmother.  It will be good to remember her again, but i am not looking forward to the service.  It is so repetitive and usually the "Father" acts holyer than thou. Dont these people know they can have a relationship with Christ outside of repetitiveness and holyer than thou attitudes.  But then again, what place do I have to judge if I am trying to strive to be more like Christ. Ah well. 
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So thankfull items, hmmm. I am thankful that God has given me these almost 30 years, even though there were ups and downs. I am thankful that i have a new car!!  Also I am thankful for a wonderful couple, with a beautiful little boy. Their faith in Jesus is wonderful and really wants me to grow further in my faith with Jesus. I will miss them once they continue their missionary schooling. 
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Tonight I am gonna start to write a bible verse on the bottom of my posts. Tonights post comes from 2 Corinthians 5:17.    Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation; old things have passed away; behold all things have become new.  2 Corinthians 5:17

No title blog title

Wow, again really stinking it up with the daily blogging.  Oh well, i was busy with car shopping.  Yesterday we went to look at cars again, no true intent on buying one that night, but looking more intently this time. First we stopped at the local toyota shop, and we wanted to look at a rav 4 up close & personel since it was coming in second in my list. They only had them outside and by this time it was raining so we didnt really want to walk their lot looking at cars.  We knew what the 2009 rav 4 looked like, we even test drove it last summer. So with a new test drive kinda out of the question, we sat down and talked money. How much, over how many months, blah blah blah. Any how they gave us a very basic estimate of $250 per month on a 36mo lease. This piqued our interest. But I was concerned about the whole recall, and wasnt sure that this was a model year we wanted. But at the same time if we bought a two year old car, the payments wouldnt go down that much and you cant lease a used car.  Ok so we thanked the guy and went to the Subaru dealer. We went in and looked at two of the models we were interested in, the forrester and the outback.  The forrester was right for us. We went and talked to the guy saying ok what is your price for this at xyz month term. It was to high. We hemmed and hawed. he said well lets go for a test drive-we did and we liked it even more. I was ready to walk away though. I say ok, only way we will think about you guys is if you can match the estimate from toyota. They did. We hemmed and hawed some more and then said yes. I will have a brand new car on saturday!! wahoo!! granted it will be a lease but still.  So tonight we decided to check out the appraisal  at carmax for me to sell it to them. They offered $2000, wich was more than what Subaru City was offering for the trade in-so we are selling it to carmax instead of trading it in like we said!
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On to other things, yesterday I went with my mom to the Milwaukee Public Museum. Normally I HATE MPL. It is so boring and the stuff seems to NEVER change.  Well we went to see the special exibit. I was not at all expecting this to be good.  I liked body works, but that was only hosted by MPL, not organized and put together by MPL.  Ok so even though I thought it would suck, I really liked it and would totally recomend this exibit. Totoally would. It was really interesting to me to see all the artifacts and to hear the story behin the dead sea scrolls. My mom didnt like it as much because she didnt like all the bible refrinces since she wasnt really familiar with the bible. but she thought it was ok  So again as a reminder-yes go and see it, it is good!
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On still more new news, I got some mail! they are non bill mail! wahoo! I had requaested abunch of seed catalogs from places that Martha Stewart likes and today i received 3 in the mail! I love getting non bill mail!!  I am totally excited for spring and digging in the dirt-yess!!  I have a brown thumb but i love to attempt this hobby called gardeing!! This year I am making a total vegetable garden! I will also have herbs, I already started those actually and there are actual little reen sprouts sticking out of the dirt now!!
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So goals have really been on a back burner this week.  I have not read very much into my fourth book, and have totally flunked on the no soda thing. We have been so busy that i just havent had much time. I did a few more rows of knitting though wich i am proud of!  Also bought my sudoku and word search books!  I took a picure of the new car with the berry so that will take a day or so to post to flickr. Today not sure what to take a pic of...hmm...
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Today I am greatful for seed catalogs-oh how I love thee!  Also yesterdays thankfull item is.duh. Thankful that hubbu FINALLY made up his mind and decided to go along and say yes to the car!!

A post regarding 365 project photos

So ok, I tryed to make a page for the photos, but it took to long and I figured who in their right mind is going to want to scroll through 100+ photos just to see the photo of the day. So I am going to be actively using flickr.  I will post the photo to flickr then the link I will post on my blog so you can see the photo!  Hope that works!! Here is the link to my main [age so you can see the ones I havent posted in a while.  http://www.flickr.com/photos/21559896@N03/sets/72157623443405772/

A bit of a blog redo

So this weekend was fairly calm and enjoyable. I have not posted a photo in a while, even though i have indeed taken a photo a day. So i plan to make a blog page for my photo o the day and post the photos there. Also I am going to make a page for my goals. This will mainly be for me so I can edit it easier when I complete goals or add new ones.  So onto other topics. Saturday was pretty mellow, we went to the home store on saturday like I had written, then I knit more of the blanket. Sunday we had AV duty at church, so we were there at 8:30, servie started at 10:45. So after church we went and grabbed a bit to eat, and we went to goodwill again. Kevin wasnt really happy, but oh well! I found three more shirts that I really liked, also found four paperback books that were 89 cents each! woohoo!  One of said books is schindlers list-and yes I know it is sad. I have seen the movie once, but never read the book, so I thought what better oppertunity!  So later on sunday I talked Kevin into us taking his mom out to eat.  We stop by and she is really concerned about some sores by her ear, Kev and I get a little concerned, and thusly decide to take her to a walk in clinic to get em checked out and make sure she doesnt have anything bad!  Turns out the sores are caused by her stress. The doc explained it to us as when you have stress some people tend to pick at their skin, then eventually if picked enough a scabe forms and she keeps reinfecting the sore with bacteria each time she picks it.  So she was scolded sorta to not pick the sores and was given a script for antibacterial pills.  So that made last night a late night. 
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So this past week I tryed to work on two goals. No soda for a month and jouneling what I eat and how I feel for a month. Well I failed at both.hmph.  The soda was actually pretty easy until the weekend when we went out for lunch and dinner. At lunch I get lemonade and then later took a sip of Kevins cup, and then realized I drank soda.  So after the mistake I decided to go all out and order white soda on sunday.  The soda was so yummy!! lol!! I have as of today restarted the goal-lets see if i can do it!! The other goal of journaling I totally failed at. I journeled part of a day and then forgot from then on.  
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So this week I plan to finish book #4, though I probably wont-my knitting may came first!!   I plan to continue on the no soda for a month. Today I worked on a newly listed goal. The goal was to join postcrossing.com and I did! I also sent out five postcards.  I made my own postcards out of scrapbooking  cardstock. I cut it to just under the maximum size that the post office allows for postcards.  So the five post cards went to  Germany, Finland, Portugal, Italy & Russia. So I wrote these out and took em to the post office today. I looked online and saw they all cost $.98 to send. So instead of waiting in line I bought 5 $1 stamps from the auomatic machine at the post office. hopefully these are the right thing to put on em-N if you read this did you buy international stamps or just regular stamps up to 98cents?? lemme know in the comments area.   Ok so other than these, I am pretty excited for when I get my postcards!! I am guessing it will be in about a month-maybe sooner??  Once my people get their post card-they enter a code and then  am added to the top of the list of people who get a post card!! I am excited!!!
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So todays photo of the day is actually of the post cards that I sent out.  Today I am greatfull for automatic machines at the post office so I dont have to deal with grumpy government emplyees!

two new goals

So today is kinda a rant about two things. So today Kevin and I went to menards to redeem our rebate thingy we earned last month. Oh my goodness. Seriously how can some one take three hours in that store-seriously?  Well so today we bought some wall repair stuff to rapair an area in our half bath, an additional door trim peice, some caulk, and a new miror for the half bath. Shopping for all that took three hours-omg!!
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Other topic of rant is in regards to my mil. Ok so in a way I feel sorry for her. So the story is, that I have in the past gotten quite angry at hubby and his brother about their lack of concern towards their mother. They dont really care, or blow what I am saying off, so then I am the one taking responsability for their mother.  I dont really have a problem with taking her to the doctor or helping her declutter her house, but seriously that is the boys responsability to step up and take care of it, not mine.  I am just pissed at their lack of real concern or effert toward taking care of her. UGH!
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I am hoping to get around to posting the pictures tommorow.  So today I am thankful for my knitting. I am thankful to be doing something soothing, and I have decided to keep the finished project. But at the sametime I hope I dont become one of those people that makes or buys stuff for that future child that hasnt been created yet, if you know what  mean!  Oh well tommorow is church, and we are the av peeps so it is an early day for us!! Oh also, I am adding to my goals again!  Goal #103 is participate in post crossing-sorry N-i coppied you it sounded like fun!  Also I copyed you on goal #104, wich is facebook free day. I was originally thinking internet free day, but then I thought, what am I thinking!! So it is facebook free day! I need to have at least 50 FB free days before the end of my 1001 days.

Fridays post

So tady was ok on my end. Had to run some errands, went to go pick up my developed roll of film from walgreens, little did i realize I shot a roll of B&W. So all my beaustiful sunshine pics dont look that great in B&W. Ah well, plan to scan them and put em on flickr. So tonight, again I took a picture of the day, but it is still on my phone-will post tommorow.  The pic is of the damn geese that seem to flock to our neighborhood and take forever to move off the road!  So not much else is going on, I started a little journel about what I eat and how I feel about what I eat, not sure if i can stick to it!  Also received a note from the lady I made an appoinment with for at the end of the month. The letter discussed how long the appointment is, and discussed what they plan to do during the initial appointment.  There is like three parts, the nurse will show us around the clinic facility, then we will meet with an insurance expert to find out what our insurance will cover-though we pretty much know what they will/wont cover. Then we sit with the doc & nurse to discuss our options.  I am getting stressed about this, but i hope it turns out ok.  Well that is about it for tonight, oh the hubby had a friend over and I pretty much shot my diet plans out the window with tonights meal! We had pizza, garlic bread and I made a chocolate cake, so a kazillion calories there...ugh...  Ok for real I am done now!!
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TOnight I am thankful for my car, I love to drive and driving really eases my stress. After I get in an argument or similar situation, all i want to do is drive around. ALso thankfull that my car is still running, we had issues with the subby a year or two ago, Kevin did major surgery on it. Headgasket repair, and coolant system redo.

tonights post

Ok so again, really nothing to talk about. Got a call from my endo about my labs coming back as my synthroid level was slightly high. I am not a perfect pill taker, most likely I accidentally double dosed, and thusly made my readings high. I am rather petrified to call her assistant back and tell her this and find out if the other test result was good or bad. I wish doctor's had public emails, OMG I totally would rather email her than talk to her on the phone. Seriously-sometimes my phone phobia comes back strong.  This time it is different than when I was a kid. When I was a kid, I was petrified to call people, because i was affraid that they would not remember me. Now I am petrified to call my doctor, because I dont want to get scolded like a little kid.  Oh also I joined sparkpeople.com  I really need the ambition to do the whole weight loss thing. I really want to be healthy, happy and fit. I never was, and I doubt i ever will be.  I am the type of person that i need to see results right away to stay motivated.  Sorry i am ranting about weight again, I guess i need to figure out how to talk about something other than that.  Today was a kinda blah day. Kevin and I talked, and he seemed to finally realize what i was trying to tell him about the cost of the whole fertility treatment probability. Is thinking about adoption, but that is just as bad cost wise, and Kevin is to picky on what type of child he would want. Ah well, one more month and we will see what my options really are.  Today I am thankfull for my husband. We went on a mini date. We went to TGI fridays for food, and since then I have been in a pretty bumming mood.  Ah well, tommorow I will post todays photo. It is of my knitting. I started a non scarf project, but really it is a basic scarf on drugs!! lol! it is a basic stocking knit baby blanket. It may be given away to friend or family who are expecting, but i may just hold on to it.  Ok good nite-my laptop battery is about to die!

Insomnia

Sometimes I suffer from insomnia, or my body just doesnt know when to go to sleep. Well last night was my latest episode of this. We went to bed late last night, well I just couldn't fall asleep, to msny thoughts in my head or whatever. So I ended up staying up till 3:30 reading. So of course I ended up finishing the book i had started like a day or two ago. It was a fast read-very fast actually.The book is 219 pages, but the spacing of the type made it a fast read.  It was a decent book, kinda interesting if you ever were a fan of Rosie. It did jump around for the first quarter or so of the book, which was kinda annoying. Ah well, it is a good enough read to recommend it to people.  So after I went to bed so late, some how this morning I was WIDE awake at 7:45, super crazy. W will see how today goes.

Another one bites the dust...

Another goal bites the dust.  Wahoo! Today I completed two goals actually! I finally went to the damn DMV to get my address changed on my licence. I figure since its been a year might as well do it! Well let me say how much i loathe the dmv-oh my goodness-seriously can these people go any slower? So at the dmv I went to, you had to wait in line 3 times. First line was to get your paperwork looked at and given a ticket with your number, the next isnt really a line-but sit and wait til your number is called. Then I had this nice but slow guy at the booth i was called to.  He was nice, he corrected my file as i got the licence changed. I had brought my plate renewal form as 2nd id, well apperantly had my address on file as being a milwaukee address. It is a very common mistake with our address, but had i really lived in milwaukee, i would have to pay a "wheel tax" at the time of plate registration.wich would be an additional $10.  the third line was to get your photo taken and thusly given a new id. OM goodness-have i said lately how much i hate my DL image-my god can i be any fatter-ugh... So also tonight I finished my wedding book. It is one of those books were you jot down all your memories and fill in the questions asked. It was good to reminisce from the wedding.  I cant beleive it will be three years in may-so crazy how the time flys by. 

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So ok I know I have talked about weight alot lately, sorry but i plan to talk about it again...sigh.  So I really dont look or feel beautiful. I dont know what my problem is. I have always had a bad self image, but recently it has really hit me head on.  I haven't stepped on the scale in a month, I hate looking at the weight on the scale-sometimes I just wanna cry. It is to much for me to go on a diet. Diets always fail me. I seem to need someone to keep me accountable-but even then I dont always do well.  I need to loose weight, I know there is no magic pill-I just wish there was... sigh. I dont have the motivation or energy to go to the gym or excersize - never did.  I know that is a key to looseing weight, but I seem to be lacking motivation.  I feel I have always been watched or monitered on what I eat-even as a child. I think that is why I have issues with weight.  Arg- I guess that is my problem.
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So today I am going to do part of a goal. The goal was to do 50 creative writeing prompts. I cose #2. The prompt is: Pick out photo #14 and write about it for 10 minutes.  Ok so I chose photo #14 on my memory card.  It is of Kevin puting ice skates on at Eble ice rink in waukesha.  We were there to celebrate my neices 8th birthday. I had alot of fun taking pictures of everyone from the family that was ice skateing.  Kevin wanted to skate but was having problems with size of his skates, they were not tight enough for him.  But he did finally find the right size and was off raceing my mom and sister around the rink.  I had fun watching, as I do not ice skate-never was very good with my balance, I mean heck I didnt learn to ride my bike until I was like 10 because of balance!  So back to the party-after we skated for a while we all went to my sister and brother in laws house for some food and presents.We had some yummy pasta thing from an italian restaraunt and some salad. The cake was actually some really good chocolate cupcakes that my mom made. Wich I finally learned the secret recipie!! So my neice got lots of goodies for her birthday.  It was so sweet, my neice was so happy and said that she liked haveing the family parties better than the friend partys.  I actually do enjoy going to my sisters house for a party. I am able to talk to my brother in laws family -wich is always fun to talk to.  Ok so technically it wasnt ten minutes-but ah well I have come close!! 
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So today I am thankful for technology and the ability to annoy my hubby with constant FB and email checking! hehe!!

Also Todays Pic O day Is of my lovely Kitty Kaylee!!

I did IT!

So today I totally feel like it is another ho hum kinda day.  Yesterday and totay i feel as though i have a blog writein block-hmm. Nothing to rant or rave about today.  Those that have been following the blog should be happy for me! I got the guts and decided to make the appointment - Yeah!! So I will be seeing this lady at the end of the month-now i just gotta work on the list of questions to ask her! Also I did finish goal #1 for this month-well at least i shot the roll. Took it to walgreens, but had no customer service-i waited for 10 minutes then left. Going to try again tommorow-but at the same time kinda wanna try a better photo center.  I will scan and post on my flickr account when I get the photos back.  I also finished book #2 of 100 yesterday. The book was called Fireproof, Novelized by Eric Wilson. I gotta say I was somewhat bummed with the book. I saw the movie before reading the book, so as I read the book I was remembering different scenes from the movie.  The book follows the exact same layout as the movie. The book did come after the movie so that makes sence i guess.  It is a good book though-about marriage and about never leaving your partner in a fire.  Read the book or watch the movie-either way it is a good story told!  Last nite I started book #3, Find Me by Rosie Odonnell. I gotta say it is really jumpy-i like the basis of the story but the 20 or so pages read are really jumpy.   Ok so yesterdays pic o the day is of my lilac bushes that are currently in pots in my basement. We got them last year and have left them in pots cause i wanna transport them to our next plac-where ever & when ever that is! so we had them in the garage for a while-then moved em to the basement when it got real cold out. Anyhow-they must think it is spring or something! There are tons of green buds on the plant.  Todays Picture of the day is of my hubby cooking in the kitchen.  Today I am thankful that I got the guts to call the doc, and that I have a loveing husband who cooks for me when I dont feel like cooking!