tonights post

Ok so again, really nothing to talk about. Got a call from my endo about my labs coming back as my synthroid level was slightly high. I am not a perfect pill taker, most likely I accidentally double dosed, and thusly made my readings high. I am rather petrified to call her assistant back and tell her this and find out if the other test result was good or bad. I wish doctor's had public emails, OMG I totally would rather email her than talk to her on the phone. Seriously-sometimes my phone phobia comes back strong.  This time it is different than when I was a kid. When I was a kid, I was petrified to call people, because i was affraid that they would not remember me. Now I am petrified to call my doctor, because I dont want to get scolded like a little kid.  Oh also I joined sparkpeople.com  I really need the ambition to do the whole weight loss thing. I really want to be healthy, happy and fit. I never was, and I doubt i ever will be.  I am the type of person that i need to see results right away to stay motivated.  Sorry i am ranting about weight again, I guess i need to figure out how to talk about something other than that.  Today was a kinda blah day. Kevin and I talked, and he seemed to finally realize what i was trying to tell him about the cost of the whole fertility treatment probability. Is thinking about adoption, but that is just as bad cost wise, and Kevin is to picky on what type of child he would want. Ah well, one more month and we will see what my options really are.  Today I am thankfull for my husband. We went on a mini date. We went to TGI fridays for food, and since then I have been in a pretty bumming mood.  Ah well, tommorow I will post todays photo. It is of my knitting. I started a non scarf project, but really it is a basic scarf on drugs!! lol! it is a basic stocking knit baby blanket. It may be given away to friend or family who are expecting, but i may just hold on to it.  Ok good nite-my laptop battery is about to die!